why do I keep overanalyzing his texts?

idk man...

I wouldn’t even be overthinking them if, from the very start, there was nothing off, right? But the moment his tone sounds different from how it used to be, my mind instantly assumes something’s wrong. It’s not like I want to think that way, it just happens. Maybe it’s not even my fault. Maybe it’s a trauma response, something I unconsciously carry from my past experiences, those moments when a simple change in tone meant someone was slowly losing interest, or that something bad was about to happen.

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Should I even be overanalyzing anything if, from the very beginning he’s been treating me right, giving me the respect, consistency, and love I actually deserve? Maybe I wouldn’t be overthinking at all if I felt safe with him, if I knew I didn’t have to question his words or his intentions.

Or maybe there really was something wrong — maybe my gut feeling as a woman was right all along, and that’s why I started overanalyzing everything. Is that wrong? Maybe, but I can’t really blame myself. That’s just how I react when something feels off. It’s a defense mechanism I never meant to build.

I don’t even know when it started, this habit of second-guessing things. But it hurts, doesn’t it? When your gut feeling, the one you hoped was just overthinking and turns out to be true.

But isn’t it true that when you genuinely like someone, you’d never let them get hurt or overthink their place in your life? You’d do everything to make them feel safe with you and to make sure they never have to question your intentions or doubt your care. Because when you truly care about someone, you protect their peace. You don’t become the reason they lose it.

I’m left wondering — why was I the one you chose to hurt, when all I ever did was love you and try to understand you?

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